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    The comeback!

    Well hello blogworld! So long and I miss you! 

    There are lots of stories to tell. So many things going on and sad that blogging has to be in my least priority. :(

    Anyways, let me start by telling you that we have recently moved from Sweden to UK. From a small town and peaceful Gothenburg, now we're here in a big city of London. It's another sad and life changing event in my life. It was a hard decision coz for about a year of our stay in Sweden, I have really loved our life there. Everything was perfect except the a-must-learn-Swedish thingy. But I was really close to finish line and here I am, back to zero and have to start all over again. And I badly miss my friends back there. :(  Oh well, let's just look at the bright side. I know that life here would be a lot easier and  there would be a lot more exciting things coming my way! :))

    Now that I'm back and with only less than three months left, I'd like to focus and blog more about the progress of our wedding preps. So don't be surprise if I turn out and sound like a bridezilla here! 

    Til ' next time guys and look forward to my wedding stories! :))

    - XoXo c",)


    Feeling guilty :(

    I have a confession to make.

    Long before the holy week, I lost my motivation in school. I don't know why. I suddenly felt really depressed lately. I just don't wanna go to school anymore. I have so many silly questions like, why can't I just go to school here instantly? Why can't I just get a job now? Why do I have to learn this fucking language that I never really care of studying before? Why can't I just live my life now? Why do I have to start all over again?! It's really frustrating me. I feel I'm stuck on it and I don't have a choice but live with it. I have wasted lots of time or many years already. I always start something and I'm never able to finish it. This time, I'm scared to try and fail again. I'm lost and I'm not sure which track I should go or what I really should do.

    Anyways, enough of the drama. :P Yesterday, I lied to my husband. My class starts at 8:30am which is way too early for me. I told him my class starts at 11:45 and ofc, he believed me. I can't tell him I don't wanna go to school coz I know he won't let me. So at exactly 10am, I forced myself to wake up and took a bath. I left home and pretended like I'm going to school. The truth is, I went to the mall. I just looked around and wasted my entire day there. Pretending like I went to school, I went home at exactly 5pm. When I got home, he wasn't there. I wondered where he was coz it's his day off. I was tired and sleepy so I just laid down in bed and I fell asleep waiting for him to come home.

    Around 6pm, there he was lying in bed with me. He was so sweet trying to wake me up. We played like usual, tickling and teasing in bed.. sshh! :P And then he told me he's got a surprise for me. So I'm all curious and wondering what it was. He led me to our window and there I saw it. It's parked outside! Ooopss, don't get excited. It's not a car! At least not yet.. haha.

    Well the reason why I'm writing this is because I really felt guilty. Of course I won't tell him. :P I was almost teary eyed when I hugged and thanked him. I was like... 'if you only know what I did today!'. Our house is just 10-15 minutes walk to our school but I always complain to him about how far it is. It's so impractical for me to take a bus coz it takes longer to wait for a bus than to walk. It was just a bike but I was really touched. I just realized how really lucky I am to have him. He really is spoiling me. He'd prioritize me before himself. He gives me everything I want, as much as he could. He provides me with everything I need but I feel so irresponsible to show him how much I appreciate it and do something in return. Ahh, it just makes me feel so guilty that he loves me so much while I'm being so useless and careless.

    Now, it helps that he inspires me. :) I hope to gain my motivation back and start focusing with my goals. I hope that someday, I can make him proud. So for now, it's about time to be a good girl! :P ( But geeeezz, it's hard!) hehe peace! :D

    What's on my mind: I finally got my wheels!!! Two wheels nga lang :D :P



    Happy Easter!!!

    One Guy Didn’t
    - Author Unknown

    Three guys were tried for crimes against humanity.
    Two guys committed crimes.
    One guy didn’t.

    Three guys were given government trials.
    Two guys had fair trials.
    One guy didn’t.

    Three guys were whipped and beaten.
    Two guys had it coming.
    One guy didn’t.

    Three guys were given crosses to carry.
    Two guys earned their crosses.
    One guy didn’t.

    Three guys were mocked and spit at along the way.
    Two guys cursed and spit back.
    One guy didn’t.

    Three guys were nailed to crosses.
    Two guys deserved it.
    One guy didn’t.

    Three guys agonized over their abandonment.
    Two guys had reason to be abandoned.
    One guy didn’t.

    Three guys talked while hanging on their crosses.
    Two guys argued.
    One guy didn’t.

    Three guys knew death was coming.
    Two guys resisted.
    One guy didn’t.

    Three guys died on three crosses.

    Three days later.
    Two guys remained in their graves.
    One guy didn’t.


    I'm now a December bride to be!

    In case I have a regular reader here in my blogland, you might be wondering why I suddenly stopped writing about our upcoming wedding. So yep, it's because we decided to move it from May to December. We had talked and thought about it many times last Christmas and after we considered a lot of things we finally made up our mind and got our final decision after New Year.

    I myself was really disappointed about it. We had lots of good reasons to push through our wedding on the original date. It was the perfect month for us but due to some unavoidable circumstances we had to do this big change. I knew our families would be disappointed about it too but in the end, there's nothing they can do but accept and support our decision. :)

    Anyways so, we decided to move it on December but question was, what's the exact date? My first choice was Dec. 27 coz it is our anniversary as a gf/bf. Then 2nd option was Dec. 18 coz it's the closest weekend before Christmas day. We wanted to celebrate christmas together with my family in Philippines too and my inlaws wants to experience the Filipino christmas traditions. But unfortunately, we didn't realize that December is a peak wedding season. We already booked some of our suppliers that it's hard for them to adjust on our new wedding date. We had to consider their availability too. We ended up with December 8 instead, that's the only choice left. There's nothing we can do but stick with it. It great coz at least we have more time to prepare plus I'm so happy that we're able to get all the suppliers I want for our wedding. :)

    There's is more other changes we did for our wedding and I have lots of stories and updates about our suppliers too butttt, i'll talk about it next time. :)

    For now, if and in case you might be invited


    to share with you my excitement

    ' Save the Date'

    for our wedding

    Dec. 08, 2010!!!

    Tan dan tadan, tan dan tadan! :P


    Grattis på min födelsedag!

    Oh-em-geeh, I have so many updates to do! I'm seriously going crazy lately. A lot of things going on and I badly need a break. Everyday I always worry about everything that needs to be done soon. I'm always cramming for the deadlines. So I apologize to anyone who visits my blog and is waiting for my updates. ( If there is...hehe).

    Anyways I'm just gonna leave you a summary of the happenings from my last birthday which has been a month already. Yep, I just turned 25 and I knooow, I'm getting old! :( :P

    The pictures will tell you more of the story. :)

    Feb. 25, 12 am CET.

    He was busy working all day and I didn't expect he's got something for me already. I was busy infront of my computer when he came to me with this bunch of flowers. Ofc, with a matching birthday greetings, hugs & kisses, a sweet messages and a surprise gift. :)

    Feb. 27 - Norway

    Me and Sander , my nephew, have the same birthday so my inlaws thought of celebrating our birthday together.

    It was just like a simple family gathering but they surprised me with more gifts. :) Cards, cash and other personal stuffs that they obviously put a lot of efforts on. I felt so touched even more when they sang 'Ja må hon leva' ( Swedish bday song) to me. They made me cry. They made me feel special. They made me feel loved. They made me feel like I really belong to their awesome family. That's just one of the many reasons why I am so proud and feeling lucky to have them as my inlaws.

    March 6 - Small birthday party with my closest friends here in Sweden.

    If you notice, our apartment is still almost empty. We're still waiting for our furnitures to be delivered which takes like 1 month - 3 months from the day we purchased it. Yeah, it really sucks! That's how it is here in Sweden and I'm really frustrated about it. You can only get something instant if you buy it in Ikea, a big and cheapest furniture company here.

    Anyways, I thought my birthday party is gonna suck but it turned out great! It was really fun. Drinks, food and the non-stop chatting. I didn't expect that my friends bought some gifts for me. We had a videoke, dance revo and played more games through our xbox 360 and my brand new Wii!

    And yep, it's the surprise gift both from my husband and inlaws. It's in my birthday wish list and I hope to lose weight using this. :P

    Till next time!!!

    And I hope SOON!



    Happy Valentines Day!

    My husband doesn't really care about Valentines day but I'm glad he at least tried to make me feel special today :). He knew he had to celebrate it since he married me. :P

    He woke me up with this bunch of flowers.

    We went out and had a snack in a cafe.

    We went to shop more kitchen stuffs and house accessories. I just noticed that this small thingies I bought has got something to do with valentines. :P

    We're suppose to watch a movie but I didn't like the movies shown here. It's effin' outdated. :(
    We ended up eating and drinking in a nice cozy restaurant instead. We didn't plan any special thing to do for Valentines but it turned out great. :)

    NOTE: It doesn't matter how expensive or how you celebrate Valentines day. What matters is, your love, trust and respect for each other is always there, growing more and more each day.
    And try to make everyday a Valentines day. :)

    ♥ (●̮̮̃•̃)●̮̮̮̮̃̃•̃̃)
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    I'm on Swedish television!!!

    In my dreams! Hahaha! :D :D :D